I’m always so paranoid when I care a lot about any one because naturally putting that much affection on one person is hard and it’s not much easier when you mean almost nothing to some one who means so much to you. I thought I really mattered to my best friend but when push came to shove, it was apparent I wasnt at all. It really broke my heart to discover that this week and I’ve just been taking it hard. I don’t know what to do about it because I don’t have any one to talk to because the one who made me feel like this was my best friend, or so I thought any way. I just wanna be important to someone who’s important to me for a change.