I Love The View From Here

I’m always so paranoid when I care a lot about any one because naturally putting that much affection on one person is hard and it’s not much easier when you mean almost nothing to some one who means so much to you. I thought I really mattered to my best friend but when push came to shove, it was apparent I wasnt at all. It really broke my heart to discover that this week and I’ve just been taking it hard. I don’t know what to do about it because I don’t have any one to talk to because the one who made me feel like this was my best friend, or so I thought any way. I just wanna be important to someone who’s important to me for a change.

There are 7 billion people on the planet yet not one person wants to be my friend. Why am I so awful?
I just wish I was important to one person because I need some one to believe I’m important in order for me to feel I am

It’s seems so preposterous to me that girls can get wrapped up in all kinds of the wrong guys because he says all the right things. And it’s no secret that I’ve committed this crime also but I’m tired of going to jail for my mistakes. It’s so upsetting that I lets happen to me again. I’m tired of believing that someone cares about me but then I get a glimpse of what their care actually looks like and it’s no where near what I’m getting.
Every heart that he sent her broke mine more and more. And I know it wouldn’t bother him none but this KILLS me. Not talking to him makes me so sad inside but he can ignore me like I was never there to begin with. I don’t understand how I can care for someone with all that I am, but them have not even one real feeling for me.